ah yes. well it has been a long time hasn't it.
the quick n the clean version of it.

I've been dating since august. he loves and spoils me, and I've almost got him talked into 4 kids. 4 KIDS!!!! OMG!!! I know thats what your all thinking, but I don't care.

my social life is non-existent. I only get to see the boyfriend during lunch at school and once every 3 to 4 weekends. but that will change when we move in together at the beginning of the summer. hopefully.

I have a certification exam in 2 months that I have to pass or else I can't get into this college program for another whole year. That would be very bad.

the problem being that I won't be seeing some of the test material til the day before. OUCH! yeah, I'm screwed.

other than that I have no life, and barely get the chance to check out my account now and then.

ttyl

well, I have to admit that I definately like the summer semester much better. I'm only in class two days a week, and one of my classes is online. Although I have one thing that bothers me. There's a girl in my class that used to live in my town. What gets me is that sh'e only 19. It just feels wrong to be in a class with someon who's at least 5 years younger than me. It's just weird.

Anyway... My social life's gone to pot again. In fact I think its worse than it was before. I tried to get a bunch of people to go listen to a live band with me the other day. Not a one of them would go. I mean I can understand that some had to work or already had plans. What irritates me is the people that I thought I was friends with who blew me off. I know they had nothing to do because of mutal friends. "oh no she's not busy she was sittin there watchin tv when I went by earlier." Its like if you don't want to hang out with me, or just aren't in the mood to hang out period, say so. Don't tell me that you gotta take care of something real quick and then you'll call me back, but you definately want to go, ... and then not call back even to if its just to say you can't make it. It just vexes me to no end that people can't be straight forward.

Sorry for ranting. I just feel like such a loser. I hate going into some place to hang out for awhile and being all by myself.

Isn't that something?! I made it all the way through the winter feelin hunky dory. I get to summer and I'm as depressed as Edgar Allen Poe. well maybe not that bad, but it still sucks. Maybe I'll go watch a blood and gutts movie. As strange as it sounds, watching everybody on tv get their butts kicked royally just makes me feel better. Its like that Transferance therapy or whatever its called. Ya let someone else take over your frustrations for awhile.

I know. I'm weird. Among other things.

Anyway... ttyl.

well, I have to admit that I definately like the summer semester much better. I'm only in class two days a week, and one of my classes is online. Although I have one thing that bothers me. There's a girl in my class that used to live in my town. What gets me is that sh'e only 19. It just feels wrong to be in a class with someon who's at least 5 years younger than me. It's just weird.

Anyway... My social life's gone to pot again. In fact I think its worse than it was before. I tried to get a bunch of people to go listen to a live band with me the other day. Not a one of them would go. I mean I can understand that some had to work or already had plans. What irritates me is the people that I thought I was friends with who blew me off. I know they had nothing to do because of mutal friends. "oh no she's not busy she was sittin there watchin tv when I went by earlier." Its like if you don't want to hang out with me, or just aren't in the mood to hang out period, say so. Don't tell me that you gotta take care of something real quick and then you'll call me back, but you definately want to go, ... and then not call back even to if its just to say you can't make it. It just vexes me to no end that people can't be straight forward.

Sorry for ranting. I just feel like such a loser. I hate going into some place to hang out for awhile and being all by myself.

Isn't that something?! I made it all the way through the winter feelin hunky dory. I get to summer and I'm as depressed as Edgar Allen Poe. well maybe not that bad, but it still sucks. Maybe I'll go watch a blood and gutts movie. As strange as it sounds, watching everybody on tv get their butts kicked royally just makes me feel better. Its like that Transferance therapy or whatever its called. Ya let someone else take over your frustrations for awhile.

I know. I'm weird. Among other things.

Anyway... ttyl.

So we're finishing up one semester now with all of its stresses like finals week. And you think that you can breathe a sigh of relief at having it all done... but no. I started registering for the summer semester and found out that yeah I could register, but in the very near future my funding could come to an abrupt end. So now I'm trying to chase people down from two different colleges to get the paperwork moving. There is a small amount of good news. I've completed my associates degree. back to the bad... I need some sort of official certificate (which I won't get until next January) in order to start classes for my BA degree in the fall.

Nothing is ever simple in my life. and Im not completely sure its all my fault.

It's horrible but sometimes I wish I was back in the army, where somone else would tell me exactly what I needed to do. but then I'd be right back to wishing I was a civilian again.

Other than the latest crisis there is absolutely nothing exciting going on in my life. I have bills and chores and school. My social life has suffered a lot this semester too. I'm making a point to go out tonight. I'm drafting a friend to go with me. I'd party all weekend but I have an anatomy test on monday......

I have every intention of running myself ragged in between semesters. Yard work and repairs that I haven't done for the last 3-4 months, and party hard all night as many times a week as I can manage. I got a lot of catching up to do.

hey I just noticed that its friday the 13th. no wonder its all going wrong today. figures...

wow. it's been awhile since I updated this.
ummm. lets see....
after finals my brain was pretty much moosh. I spent my xmas vacation being as lazy as possible before I had to start school again. I only wish I could have had more lazy time. I'm back to being exhausted now that school has started again. I've got micro, chemistry, and anatomy. Yesterday I ttok my first chem test, and today I took the anatomy test. Now I have a micro test on monday to look forward to.
can't say I'm on a creative kick right now. by the time I get home I'm exhausted but still have to study.
I remember being able to come home from school to watch a little tv, get wrapped up in a good book, or go color happy. being a kid was great. no job, no bills, minimal responsibilities and a social life!
I need to find a way to nurture my inner child and still pass my classes.
anyway... I gotta go do more of that studying I was talking about.
later